Dec day 5 - Spider Web

Remember my previous post at December Day 3 when I was so busy cleaning all the spider web at our new house? Nah! Looks like Ruel got inspired with it!
He try to change our room to be a full spider web decoration.

use in this photo is right side of December Daily Tale 3

I tweak this photo with My Four Hens' action here: Fresco.

you'll see my error white balance, and I just click the action and change the opacity.

Btw later today I will have few goodies up!
Stay tuned! And oh.. are you a subscriber? Coz you can get extra 10% OFF for every of your purchase! :) Yummy!!

How's your december?
Are you documenting your Daily Tale?
Share with me your document, I will be happy to browse around! :)

Dec day 3 - Scrap Gathering & Cleaning Day

Dec Day 3 is a visit by Winnie (Charlize Creation - shop | blog) from SBG to our city, Jakarta.
Me, Lydia ( shop | blog ) and Armina ( shop | blog ) had a short and really fun meeting today. Talking about life and of course scrapbooking. :)

Here are few of our photos.. :)

date by Amy Martin - The Lily Pad

and in the end of the day, is cleaning day. :)
me in my not-good-looking-mode, cleaning our new house from spider web. Hopefully next year we can move there when we able to bough house stuffs (pray & wish).

using left side of December Daily Tale 1

PS: I will coming with a new template for each day of December soon. Stay tuned! :)

Ruel and Lego

Our son Ruel is really addicted to vehicle since the beginning, but he usually only play with common toys, lately he start to get interest with Lego, building his own cars, boats, aeroplanes. Although since the Lego are small, it's kinda hard for him to pull out the lego. However a tiny boat created today, and this time I decide to took some photos of it. :)

I am happy with his new interest. At least this can train his patient. Hehe..  More lego will coming to our house for sure. I love it myself! And happily play with Ruel today before start to work!

Any mom of boys (or girls) with legos, too?

Hope everyone have a blessed day! :)

Family Gathering

After years, 4 years wow that is a long time.. we finally met our sister again. :)
It's a long 23 hours trip from California to Jakarta, with a little baby niece we met for the 1st time.
We will go out again for a family time later today. :)

PS: A RAK still opening at my previous post.

Never Give Up

6-8-2011
I was scared. I am worry. I won't deny it. However one thing you have to know, that I NEVER give up on you. Same as I never give up on life. I know you are not in my hand. It never is since the 1st time. You are in His hand. I just need to keep remind myself of this.

Dream

If you following my twitter and my pinterest you might notice that I'd been collectiong star & dream quotes and art for awhile. Lately I had been thinking about my own dreams that pretty much left behind.

Anyway I just create this today. Just a little fun things to start the day. Drawing this on the floor with some paint after I finished my illustration for a client.

And a good quote I read today from a twitter friend (thank u!) and one I got from yesterday:

Dreams are the touchstones of our character. - Henry David Thoreau

You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream. - CS Lewis

Have a sweet dream for you who just going to end the day... and wish u a spirited day for those who start the day! And of course.. God bless u all. :)

Jakarta At Night

Jakarta at night, last Friday, 29 July 2011.
Stuck like a river of junk.

Every Friday night, the traffic around Jakarta is a huge pain. So we usually choose to stay at home or going out before the office hour end. However sometimes we just can't avoid the traffic.
Last Friday instead of being a grumpy grumbler I decide to take a shoot  of these. Bad lighting  for sure, so I have to put the ISO higher. And while I use my camera to take some photos, Ruel use my handphone to take some, too. It's pretty much turn to be a little fun activity for awhile. :) Of course after that we wiiiish the traffic will gets better again. :D

How's your city at night? :)

PS: If you wanna win my coming soon kit, today is your last chance. Check here.

Ruel & Animal Kingdom

During Ruel's school holiday, our family stay at home most of the time.

And I am putting Ruel to Pingu Holiday Class so he has things to do and not get too bored at home since me and his daddy is pretty much busy with some works. 

The Pingu Class is at a Mall.
And in this holiday, the mall has an Animal Kingdom exhibition, with lots of BIG animal dolls.

Last week we visit it and taking some photos. :)

Ruel loves animals and putting the mouse doll on his shoulder.

 photo processing:  My Four Hens' Rosy action

What are you doing during school holiday? :)

Are jumping mall to mall like us? LOL.

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Ruel's LOGO and hand drawn

Some of you may know what my son Ruel (5 years old) really loves to draw. He is a better artist than me and my hubby I think. At least he is FAR better than both of us while we were at his age. :)

Lately when he draw his sketch, sometimes he put his 'mark' on them.
And he said, it's his LOGO. Yes, he said LOGO! 

He knows LOGO from the Cars'  Logo (he can draw it, too), and of course from a lot of LOGO his daddy made for clients. 

My hubby own www.ricksdesign.com and he creates logo, etc, any kind of graphic design stuffs. 

And Ruel grow by looking at all of his daddy's work.

So here I wanna show you Ruel's logo:

The "jr" one is his main logo.

And the 2nd one is his "cool logo". He said "logo keren" in Indonesia. But I think it translated better as "cool logo" in English. :D

And this is his sketch this afternoon:

Every time he finished his sketch he tell the story to us. All of his hand drawn has story in it. So it's interesting. And sometimes it's an entertaining imagination. :)

FUN!

I just can't imagine can have this kind of joy by having a child.

What a blessing.

Thank God for it. :)

And thanks for reading..

Blessing to you and family.

I love you

Never imagine that I can love someone as much as I love you. :)

Just send it to the SOURCE

Last night, I had been dealing with worry again.

*sigh* I truly believe that we, human, can never won from this forever, as we are really such a weak creature. We tend to see the fact in our life, and how cruel the world can be.

My main worry as always is Ruel. Worry about this and that.

In fact, although most people can't see his autism background anymore, but we parents sometimes still see some splotch... one of them is his over-cautious.

So last night I finally decide to ask Ruel and my hubby to join in a little worship together, of course we were singing little children's worship song.

I wanna show you the music:

the text said:

Bapaku mengasihiMu

Yesus kumenyembahMu

Roh Kudus penuhilah aku

dengan kasih sayangMu

translation:

Father, I love You

Jesus, I worship You

Holy Spirit, fill me

with your love

It's a really simple and sweet song. :)

of course that is really match with a little kid's understanding.

I know how limited I am as a parent. There will be TONS of things that I don't know how to handle. And if I wanna follow my knowledge, I will be overwhelmed with EVERYTHING.

So I know the only solution I have is sending Ruel right to the SOURCE. Sending him right to God Himself. And let Ruel know Jesus personally. As I am limited, but God, He is unlimited. And He is the only who will guide Ruel until the rest of his life.
We are unable to do this. Seriously, we can't.

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Rom.10:17 “Faith comes from what is heard, and what is heard comes through the word of Christ.” 

My very unstable love, faith, hope... and Clinging Kit

Good morning/night, ladies.. :)

If you remember my older faith-based kit: Light and also my blog post regarding to the kit (you might wanna read it after this). You will know that I always scared when making a Christian based kit. Not only last year, but still today. I had no idea why, there's a lot in me that need to be healed by God for sure.. every of us does, but one thing I truly know, the Spirit of the Lord is not intimidating.  I know I am very imperfect, and I again wanna encourage you all to look at the Lord itself, and not the one who making this kit, as the person is only me. Someone who actually not worth to represent God if it is not He that makes me worth.

Anyway, Clinging is a little expression of our love to God.

As I said before, of course it's nothing to compare with His love to us. :)

I remember  almost 17 years ago, when I 1st know Jesus and receive Him as my Savior, end of 1994 while I almost finished my junior high school, I am so full with 'fire', so idealist, so full with power, my life changed after I know Him, and I start to proclaim my love to God every where. I believe in God, but I also believe in my love to God. I believe I will be loyal to God till I death. I believe there's no way I will be ungrateful to His cross. I believe I will stand even when the storm comes. I am so like "Peter".

But then... those storm really comes. The hardest one comes after my son was diagnosed with PDD-NOS. And my love to God fall apart. It's a hard days. After years I finally able to recover in my faith. But NOW I know for sure, that I can never depend on my love to God. I can never really trust my feeling, as it's too unstable. Only to HIS LOVE I can depend on.

Do you ever pray and worship God at the night and feel that you LOVE Him so much and then after you wake up in the morning you are not the same people as last night? Or when you are so fall in love with Him at the retreat or at the church, but when you are home, you are a different person, or maybe not love Him as much as you do when you are at the church?

Yupe, that's it. Our love to God is THAT unstable.

So only by His grace, and with His love we can stand.

Our love can never ever compare it.

Still I want to learn to love Him. More and more...

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In the end that is all that matters. :)

So here is Clinging Collection

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if you grab the whole collection:

Which include:

Include:
14 papers
1 pack of alphas, numbers, and some punction
45 elements


and a coordinated word strips: 

22 Christian word strips

and a matching creative templates:

and this is my page:

journal:
I will never ever able to be proud about my love to You, as it had been proven how weak it is, and how unstable it is, but if I am here today, still can hold my faith,  it is not because my love, but it's Your love that  makes me able to stand until today. You had love  me 1st. And if I can make a wish, God, I want to once  again understand about your grace..
credits: Clinging Kit, Clinging Word Strips, Bunch of Sketches 16, and All Stitched

and more inspiration from:

Mi Monteiro, Sasha, Joyce, Stephanie (Stepko), Irene, Madlen, Sandra, Steffi, Kacir, Denise, Angela, Andrea, Nicole






Mi is giving me the translation of Amanda (her daughter)'s prayer. It's a google translator, so it's not perfect, but it does touch my heart.. If anyone wanna read, please check Mi's gallery here.




Amazing wish from Sasha for her daughter's faith! So touching...
























And if haven't notice, now on the top-right of my blog there's a section named:

It will be a place for me to put a great deal of the week or anytime.
It might not always full with stuffs, but there's some right now, which I wish can be something that you want. :)

Also I wanna say...

...... ♥ ...... THANK YOU SO MUCH ...... ♥ ......
for all the sweet comments and encouraging words you leave at my blog.
I truly appreciate it, and for your contribution from the previous RAK.
Blessing to you and all that you love.


And now here is the winner of CLINGING COLLECTION:

Congrats AnnaFlor and sf_gal
Please email me kitty.designs@yahoo.com
to claim your code.

Hugs,
Kitty

Peek a Boo RAK - Clinging

Is any of you know this song?

I was listening to this song when I create this kit.. so it's pretty much inspire me. :)

And this kit is another little expression of our love to God.

Not much to compare with His love to us... of course..
I had learn that our love (my love) to God can never guarantee anything, as it's too unstable, and it keep changing depend on situation.. but still I want, and I want to learn to love Him, as He loves me 1st.

So anyway if u wanna win this kit, which you can still use it for any kind of daily scrap actually, just leave your comment here.

To multiply your chance, tweet or facebook it and come back here with the link to twitter of facebook (add @kittydesign for twitter).

Multiply comment without link will be deleted to be fair. :)
I am closing the chance before Thursday, so hurry up!!

PS: Last week I was saying that I am going to have a freebie for you. I honestly haven't been able to complete it yet, not like what I predict before, the school holiday makes my time very limited. But I promise it will coming very soon. 

Hugs,

Kitty

Even If I want...

Even if I wanna say it's all because of my hard works, I wouldn't dare. It's all because of His grace. And it should glorified Him, and He alone!

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Even if I wish I can take credit on bringing people to know Jesus, I can not.

If God wants someone to know Him, He can use anyone to share the Gospel not only me. So no, I can not credit myself. :)

Even if I wish I can say my son had improved so much because I had full concern on him, still no I can't.

Because if it not because of His works, and because of His will, my little Ruel won't be like this today, even if I work harder. So no, I can't.

Even if I wanna say because of I am a sweet person so this marriage can works and we have a good relationship.

But no I can't. Because I am not that sweet. And not that kind. And not that humble. I have tons of things need to be fix. So really, it's His works.

Even if I wanna say I can stand where I am today because I sleep late at night, work harder, learn harder, design harder, NO I can't.

Because even when I sleep earlier He still bless me, He still give me creativity. So really, what had I done that worth to be credited? Nothing.

Revelation 4:10-11

... the twenty-four elders fall down before him who sits on the throne, and worship him who lives for ever and ever. They lay their crowns before the throne and say:

"You are worthy, our Lord and God, to receive glory and honor and power, for you created all things, and by your will they were created and have their being."

*inspired by pastor Glen's sermon months ago

PS: only few tagged, too sleepy to remember things, sorry. :p

Our 6th Wedd Anniversary. :)

21st May is our 6th year anniversary. :)
It's a 6 blessed year and we had been through a lot of things. :)
I can't post a lot as it's Sunday and we still have our family time.
But here we are..



We both were listening this song yesterday (and also today):



as this is our wedding song when we enter the wedding hall.
A great reminder that our marriage based on and for the glory of the Lord. :)
I still love this song until today, and happy that we choose this song to enter the world of marriage. It's in fact not as easy as I imagine, but it does beautiful, it's precious, and it's something that I don't regret. And God deliver us a amazing son to complete our happiness. :)

But anyway, please enjoy this coupon:
KitWedAniv6 ----> used
$6 to my store just for the 1st person who use it. :)

Hugs,
Kitty

Ruel's Hand Drawn

Like me and his daddy, Ruel loves drawing.
Every where we go, we need to bring papers and spidol, so he can draw while he was waiting for us.

These are some Ruel's hand drawn, the complete set with colors and paint.

Ruel's latest hand drawn, a boy who sit and study.
But it's still have Ruel's trademark there: a little blue train on the table, a tiny white-red aeroplane behind the window, and the number on the boy's cloth. Hehhee..



This is the lentern, for Chinese New Year, 3 Feb 2011



25 Jan 2011, this one is kinda hard because of all the curves.


I always wait for more projects with little Ruel, always enjoy it.

Oh anyway, this one is one of his hand drawn while sitting at the restaurant waiting for the food.
This was from 31 Dec 2010



He wrote the Happy New Year with me spelling the word one by one. :)

Anyway, don't forget to check out Miss You In The Morning Collection as it is still 20% OFF now. :)

Have a wonderful day. :)

Hugs,
Kitty

Worry part.2

While I was opening my comp again tonight, a dear friend asked on how I cast my worry.
I was confuse at 1st if I really know the answer.

But the thing is, it is impossible for us to cast all the worries in us.
Human are full with doubt. The fact is one of our biggest enemy.

The fact that works doesn't goes as well as we wish.
The fact that our house is not as warm as we wish to be.
or maybe the fact that our health is not as good as we expected.
Fact this and fact that.
The fact usually become the enemy of our faith.

That is why we need to be reminded about the word of God, and the other fact, the true fact that God loves us.

When I asked about "worry", my pastor remind me of this word:

1 John 4:18
There is no fear in love. But perfect love drives out fear, because fear has to do with punishment. The one who fears is not made perfect in love.

The understanding that God loves me, God loves you, God loves us should be able to comfort us that no matter what happen, He will never plan something that will harm us.

Jeremiah 29:11 (New International Version, ©2010)
For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.

Romans 8:28
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who[a] have been called according to his purpose.

Am I already free from worry?
I do right now, but maybe not tomorrow, that makes me need to again, remind myself that God loves me. He did. He always did. He loves me, and He will just never let me go. It is my choice to hold His hand or walking by myself.

This post might now answering your problem right now.
But the word of God will surely does, when you plant it in your heart today, tomorrow, and everyday...



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Hugs and God loves you...

Sweet dreams...

My days are really busy lately.

Holiday trip.. and when I get back, I have tons of works to do and also friends who wanna hang out together to share lives.
Night is one of the moment I appreciate the most because it is the only time while I can personally ponder about life.. me, my family, my dear God. Time for me to dig deeper about my heart and my desire. And especially to understand once more time about the love of God.

Tonight, again I am so tired.
And I wanna sleep.

But God reminds me of some of His words. And this little post is all about this, to remind us that even when we sleep, He never did. And He protect and guide us.


*little Ruel sleeping after a really tired day at Singapore*

"He will not let you fall. Your guardian will not fall asleep."
Psalm 121:3

Sweet dreams everyone.
Or for those who just start the day.. again with all of my heart: have a blessed day.

Hugs,
Kitty

The tiny little love I have for Him...

John 21: 15-19



Jesus: Peter, do you "agape" with Me?

Peter: (remember about what just happen times ago while he betray Jesus, with a slow voice he answer): Jesus.. You knows everything. I am "filia" to You.

Jesus eat and silent for a moment... and He look at Peter and asked Peter once more...

Jesus: Peter, do you "agape" with me?

Peter looking at Jesus sadly: Jesus... You knows everything.. I can only "filia" to You." *sob*

Jesus... eating and looking at Peter, loving him with His eyes, accept Peter with His loving hand and asked..

Jesus: Peter, do you "filia" with me?

Jesus lowering the love standar to the capacity that Peter has...

Peter *sob sob* crying and said, "Jesus, You knows everything... You KNOW that I am only "filia" to You."


Jesus accept Peter's capacity of love.
And Jesus accept the capacity of love we have to Him.


**Agape: the unlimited love, the perfect love from God
Filia: the friendship love**


This story is not a new story for me, and I had heard this again and again. But it just never grow in my heart until today when my young pastor (thanks, Ramon!) tell this story again (with his funny style). And I almost cried when I heard that. (and I hate crying in front of people or in the middle of the service. hahahha).

I just somehow KNOW that I am a lover person.

I love someone romantically in my own way. In a unique way. I express my feeling in my art the most.

And a really introvert person in the same way.

But since I know Jesus the 1st time, I just know I am falling in love with Him. With a teenager love. A love full with fire and excitement.


But time goes by.
Life is hard.
Too much valley.
Questions with no answers.
Anger. Disappointment. Tears.

I share to look for answers.
The answers I got is judgment.
And it's not acceptable for an introvert side of me.
I feel betrayed.

And once I realize again that it is just as simple as God loves me, still it's not release me yet.

I start to realize that the love I have for God is "that low".
And easily flow away by the wind.
I feel bad. I feel sad. I feel I am not worth enough.

One nite, I share with my hubby that I wanna love Him.
Not only love Him, I wanna falling in love with Him.
More than that I wanna deeper ... deeper ... deeper... drawn... until I can no longer breath without Him.
But I KNOW I can't.
I don't have that huge capacity to love Him that much.
And in the middle of night, tears are falling down while no one knows.

I sleep with a teary eyes.

I want to love Him. I want to love Him. I want to love Him.
God I wanna love You... You and You alone.

And God listen to me.
He listen to the sounds of my heart.

I just need to take 1 step to God, and He will RUN to me..
He will run a thousand miles to me.. and to you.

One day past and I start to love Him again.
Not with a HUGE love like I wish of course, but I know I start to love Him again.
I just know it wasn't me. It is HIM that makes me loves Him.
And the day after, I love HIM more.

Miss You in the morning, love You all day long, and thinking of You at the night.

And today, I know He accept my love in the capacity that I have.
This looow love that I have for Him.
That tiny little love that I have for Him.
And it's it enough for Him.

To know He loves me.
..that is enough.

Today..
how big is your love to God?
or maybe I should asked, how small is your love to God?
believe me it is enough.



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